dont know what to blog abt actually.haha.just finished my ss project.hehe!!hmmm..so now i'm left with..uh..amaths tb questions, english summary and geog wb.muahaha!!then i can watch tv alr. =D

today..day went on quite fine.haha.after school wanted to go for ice-cream@haagen daz with ivana and ms ros.but ms ros had to do her final checks for the sec 4 mid-year emaths paper.so she cant come.so we're going on tuesday.haha.yay!!then gonna walk walk.days passing by really fast.today's khad's birthday.haha.HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHADIJAH!!haha.hmmm.gonna celebrate it at her place on sat.her mummy's cooking.yay!haha..hmmm..need to collect my jeans@mango before going over.yupps.haha.new jeans..yay!haha.

you really hurt my feelings at times whenever you speak to me.you dont care abt how i really feel.i'm like you,a person with feelings and blood flowing below my skin.you dont wish to get hurt.i dont wish too.but you words really hurt me a lot..when can we get back to the past..like how we used to be..happily laughing together?i think that'll never happen ever again in our lives.....

yay! finished half of my ss project alr! haha.i just need to find more things to add in.haha.hmmm..today..the day went on quite fine.haha.hmmm..had cca today..nothing much la.they passed over the leadership alr.haha.hmmm..expected those peeps.well.wanted to blog today despite it is alr time for me to sleep cos of my dearest..friend.haha.

hey.its up to you if you want to continue your friendship with her like that.if you feel that at times she disappoints you yet at times make you hapy is enough,just loeave the matter alone.but one thing i can really see is that.you cherish the friendship you have with her.since so,you should tell her how you're really feeling.otherwise you'll just be suffering alone in silence.there may be times when things will not work out and you two would just end up in fights..that way,it'll cause your friendship with her to fall apart.i'll only be able to advise what to do.the rest is up to you to decide how you want to face and react to it alright.i'll be here when you need and even when you just want to chat with me. =)

[friends are those who are willing to lend you a listening ear no matter if the problem is good or bad,big or small.they are also willing to spend some time down with you just to listen to what you have to say,even if its actually what you feel and think.thats how friends become closer and understand each other better.]

sigh..so many projects.ahh..ss project..i've yet typed it out.haha..now i've another one which is due tmr.and here i am using the computer.haha.clever me.cdc project.its more of task.haha.enable more ppl to be interested in the recycling project.sigh..its a difficult one.i've come up with an idea alr.its just that i'm having trouble with the content..sigh..ahh!!tmr morning..how am i supposed to finish by then?i sahll and i will. hehe..

today.the day went on really okay.i'm down for parents night this friday!haha..yay!!anyways.then after school,went to get the key to get the toolbox for the class to fix the shelve in my class.yingying said i could use take it. so good.but.i had trouble opening the damn door.stupid door.they should just repair it la.it belongs to pm and no one in pm knows how to open it.so i had to ask paulyn to help.she only managed to turn the lock once.then got stuck again.so she got me to go look for mr arman.then i went down to look for him.i failed to.cae back and i found paulyn missing.i waited and waited.then i saw mr arman.he asked me why i needed to open the door.i told him that i needed the toolbox.then he asked me why i needed it.i told him i needed to take some tools to do the shelve.then he went towards the door and asked me.when was it that we are allowed to take tools belonging to cca for personal use?i was like uh..i came up with the idea.then he managed to open the door and was just holding on to it.he refused to allow me to take it.then i was like my senior allows me to take it.then he said i'm sorry but i cant let you take it and he just closed the door and locked it.i was like.what the hell?i ran up and down with ppl waiting for me in class for 45 mins and when the door is finally open,here you tell me that i cant have the damn box.the box belongs to pm alright!yingying alr allowed me to take it.i'll make sure that everything i take from the box will still be there when i returned.but what you're telling me now is like i'm an irresponsible girl who cant be trusted over some tools.its like if i want to borrow things,i'll make sure i'll return everything.he didnt know how much time i've wasted.i know i was wrong to use cca's things for personal use.but i just needed to fix a shelve.i ran around just to look for him and in the end,he says i'm sorry i cant lend them to you and shut the door right in front of my face.did he know how i felt?running around like a fool around the school and not getting what i needed in the end.argh!

forget it.i'm wrong alright.i admit it.after the stupid thing,i went with shaf to do our ss prject.haha.we didnt.just that we edited the research.cos she did the research,i'll do the whole brochure.yupps.then went home.

i guess i wont be doing the project today.gonna like do it tmr.cos i'm gonna do the cdc project today.then if i finish on time,i'll do either the project or the essay.yupps.gonna start on the task alr.byes. =)

my life's getting better alr.haha.
at beve's house now.studying.haha.
am i studying?i dont know too!haha.
oh wells.amaths and bio test tmr.ahh.
death awaits me.
gonna cut hair later. =D
hmmmm...this place is freezing..haha.
beve is cold-blooded.thats why she can stand the cold.haha!

trying to put all my friendship problems aside alr.
its time for me to be able to take things by my stride and pick myself up no matter how hard the problem would be.thinking too much and too hard abt them would only make myself suffer even more.so i shall choose the path of just ignoring things which can still wait.i need to focus on my studies now.the red marks in my progress card must go down by the next term.which has alr started for a week.sigh.i guess right now,i need to chase after time..so i can actually relax more..yupps.

i guess this blog has more or less became my venting anger place.haha.

well.i dont know what happened.but we just seemed drifted apart.even someone else asked me if anything had happened between the both of us.i guess its because of all the friendship problems i had with other ppl which made me more and more reluctant to do the initiative moves anymore.i'm really tired of always being the one who takes the initiative to talk to my friends alr.why is it that whenever you guys go out,i'm always left out?i dont know why.its like..i'm no longer in the clique we used to be.maybe its just what i'm feeling.but..someone else tells me what i'm feeling too.to be frank,i've been feeling this since a really long time ago.but i guess i didnt want to face reality that we did drift apart..am i to just sit here and wait for you to take the initiative move or am i supposed to make the initiative move like all the other friendships i did?can you tell me what to do?i'm really tired..

its been confirmed that my sister will be leaving for perth on the 10th of july 2006.ahh..i dont want her to leave..life will totally be different when she leaves.there will be someone lesser to dote on me.someone lesser who will listen to me and give me advices.someone lesser who'll understand me and tries to speak up for me.even if there's such thing called the web cam,it'll still be different.the room next to mine will be empty.the bed will remain untouched for a year..i'll miss the girl who'll forever be dicturbing and pissing me off.the girl who'll always be nagging at me.i know i hadnt cherished her enough.i will. from now on.will you please try to come back on your 21st birthday?i really want to celebrate for you.and i'm willing to save up the money to get you an air-ticket...

yay!finally this day has come.i can finally sleep well.sigh.just when i can finally rest,those stupid teachers want us to go back for tutorials.wth la.i need rest.you teachers need them too right?so just stay at home and sleep.please...ahh.

anyways.thank you yiggie!for that cake.i thought you were just joking can.i didnt expect you to really get it.haha.thanks and i really love it. =) but you werent there.i couldnt find any of you.sigh.we'll have it on your birthday okays?dont worry even if its during the holz.i'll get it and go to your house. =D haha.

tended sparks stall today.earned about $11+ yay!haha.so happy.after that ate the dearest cake which yiggie bought for me.=) then went off to tm with steph.guess what. no sacians there.yay!thats like so good.haha.bought something for myself.=) adidas froze.wanted to 1st one long time ago but couldnt find it.so bought this one.hehe.i only saw it like after step left.but wells.i love it.=) haha.then cabbed home.so ex la.the driver was like taking his own sweet time.sigh.

did badly this time round for progress card.gonna take this holiday to study what i dont understand.yupps.i dont wish to disappoint them again.and also dont want to disappoint meself and my dearest teacher who had such high hopes on me. =) thanks for being there for me when i needed..

i guess we're alright alr.[i'm talking about someone else.not the one from my previous entry] =) finally la..haha.well.i guess we wont be like before anymore.but i really hope that things will work out better soon. =) sigh..i guess i did really badly for my 1st term progress card.sigh. i failed like 6/7 subjects?ahh..needa buck up alr.i'm really bad in geog la.who's gonna save me?i guess i'm gonna continue to mug on my geog before i really die.cos if i fail my geog,i'll fail my humans.which is equals to no jc.i haven decide where to go first but i still wanna do my best.which i tihnk i've yet done...

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